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This has been a real life post
I've been thinking lately about a lot of of different things. Mostly, the unsettling, creeping feeling that I've been in one place for too long. It didn't bother me so much when I was still in college, because I'd be going back and forth for breaks, and every time I went back to college it was moving into a new dorm. But I've been home for over a year now and nothing has really changed.
(I rearranged my room once, just to get that "new" feel)
But, see, I think my problem goes further back than that. My dad is retired Army, and for my entire life I've been accustomed to uprooting and moving. I was born in New Jersey, my family then moved to Germany. Then to North Carolina. Then back to Germany, before moving here to Virginia when I was eleven. I've been here longer than anywhere else, and while I've made a home for myself here, I don't feel like I'm "from" Virginia the way other people might be.
I think being around my parents increases this feeling of stagnancy. I love them to pieces, but even my mom admits I do better on my own. The more I think about it, the more appealing it seems to just pack everything up and move. Where? I'm thinking about Chicago. I love cities, I enjoy the cold, and there's something in me right now that just feels drawn there. Is it impulsive? Perhaps. But I feel like if I remain here too long I'll just get cold feet about doing anything.
Right now I'm working as a server at Ruby Tuesday. It's making me decent enough money, though I know I could do better if I got a server position at a restaurant where people tend to spend a bit more. I mean, I figure it's at least a temporary solution while I figure things out and get myself on my feet, and it's something I can do no matter where I am.
Anyone else on my flist done this sort of thing, packing up and moving somewhere new, not necessarily knowing what will happen? Anyone in the Chicago area who can give me any advice? I don't know, I just feel like I have to do something, because outside of government work (which is really difficult to get right now), my options in Virginia are limited.
(I rearranged my room once, just to get that "new" feel)
But, see, I think my problem goes further back than that. My dad is retired Army, and for my entire life I've been accustomed to uprooting and moving. I was born in New Jersey, my family then moved to Germany. Then to North Carolina. Then back to Germany, before moving here to Virginia when I was eleven. I've been here longer than anywhere else, and while I've made a home for myself here, I don't feel like I'm "from" Virginia the way other people might be.
I think being around my parents increases this feeling of stagnancy. I love them to pieces, but even my mom admits I do better on my own. The more I think about it, the more appealing it seems to just pack everything up and move. Where? I'm thinking about Chicago. I love cities, I enjoy the cold, and there's something in me right now that just feels drawn there. Is it impulsive? Perhaps. But I feel like if I remain here too long I'll just get cold feet about doing anything.
Right now I'm working as a server at Ruby Tuesday. It's making me decent enough money, though I know I could do better if I got a server position at a restaurant where people tend to spend a bit more. I mean, I figure it's at least a temporary solution while I figure things out and get myself on my feet, and it's something I can do no matter where I am.
Anyone else on my flist done this sort of thing, packing up and moving somewhere new, not necessarily knowing what will happen? Anyone in the Chicago area who can give me any advice? I don't know, I just feel like I have to do something, because outside of government work (which is really difficult to get right now), my options in Virginia are limited.